Diary of an NQT: Going into ‘tell mode’

I have recently been questioning my ability as a teacher. I find myself standing in lessons thinking: “I am in “tell mode”, how do I make this learning more independent?”

I wonder if this feeling of inadequacy is as a consequence of the responsibility of teaching combined with the necessary pace to maintain a “good to outstanding” performance.

At the same time, I am very reflective as a person and usually view my own performance as lacking. I think that I expect radical things and profound progress in every lesson and I am not sure if this is likely or even realistic.

I know activities that build in independence and assessment for learning are always the most successful. However, I have not found a method of planning these quickly enough. Often, creating the resources that are required (either created from scratch or by tweaking existing materials) is time-intensive and the enthusiasm I carry for my role is often hit by these time restraints.